To DO or not to DO...that is the question.

All my life, I've looked at good art (music, theater, writing, stand-up) and thought to myself...YES!  I NEED to do THAT.  I learned this weekend that bad art can have the same affect.  You see, somehow I got caught watching the Invention of Lying with Ricky Gervais and Jennifer Gardner and it's a TERRIBLE movie.  It made me think, hey, even I can do better!

I used to wonder what I was gonna BE when I grew up.   Then I found radio and loved it, then that whole medium died a horrible death and I tried something a little less creative.  Since having kids, I've been in the same job for years and it's very little brainpower after hours.  Kids are getting older and flying solo more so I should be doing SOMETHING else creative, but what?

I've thought podcast, sure, with my background in radio that should be easy but it's also intimidating.   I have to find a topic (motherhood, Seinfeld-like observational comedy, and BNL?) find time to record, find a co-host, design cover art, edit, and find an audience besides my mother.  Does it count as podcasting if you just create it and NO ONE listens?

Every summer I joke to my co-workers that I'm going to write my book while on summer break and not be available come fall when school starts again...and every year I lounge and find other things to do in my downtime.  Never gonna be a book.

We recently went to LA and there is money in creative thinking there.  LOTS of money.  But no one is just gonna find this terrible blog that I publish 4 times a year and think "Hey, I really need that girl on my staff," even though that's what I want.  I don't want to put in the work, but I want the final product.  I'm ready for my second act but a little lazy when it comes to preparing for my next big thing.

I used to believe it was coming around the corner, my chance to make something of my life.  But I'm 44...that chance might have gone by without me noticing.  I am VERY bad at directions.

So, what's next?  It's a 3-day weekend so I'm either going to watch my weight in netflix, disney+, and YouTubeTV (can we just say that content is CRAZY right now?!  How can I possibly have time to watch every show I want, it's ridiculous!) Or, I'm going to finally DO something.  Stay tuned.